Letting Go and Letting God: A Season of Change

I know I write a lot. I write because its a way of documenting where I am at in my life. Its a way for me to look back and reflect on past experiences. I am putting this on this blog for myself. To see the before and after process of God working in my life this summer.

I am at a season of my life where there is a lot of change. Its not necessarily bad change, but its change that really ruffles my feathers. Its really...uncomfortable. There are two major things in my life that I know I have to let go of and let God be in control.

If you know me, you know that I love to have everything under control. Not in a dictatorship sort of way, but I like to have a sense of knowing where I am going in my life and having things planned out in advanced. I hate last minute things. I am not a huge fan of change in my schedule nor am I one for sudden surprises. Like, "Oh hey! Welcome back from school! Oh bee-tee-dubs...we're moving." I know the average human being probably doesn't enjoy that either, but for me its hard when this home is seriously all I have ever known. Having that huge shock of moving felt unbelievable at first. Even though its the same city, I love this house. Its MY house. I have fallen down these stairs multiple times. Done huge cannon balls in my pool. Climbed over that brick wall that is the divider between me and my best friend's house. Taken senior winter formal pictures in the backyard by the pool. Had my first kiss on that porch. Plenty of great times with friends and family. Its all surreal.

The other thing is letting go of something else that I love. I need prayer for that as well. Sorry to be vague.

I have such tight holds on these things that its extremely hard to let go and to let God in. This summer has been great as far as hanging out with friends, but deep down, I am adjusting to this funky awkward stage of life. Two crutches have been taken away and I have to learn how to walk again. I have to learn that my home is really my family and that other thing is not my world, I can only be satisfied in God alone. I have to draw near to God. I have to stop being so harsh on myself and to let the love of Christ fill my soul. I have to focus on my own relationship with Christ and to stop comparing myself to everyone else. I have to not be afraid of the unknown. To not be afraid of loss, because with Christ, I gain. To not be afraid of surrender. And to not be afraid of being vulnerable in terms of admitting my deepest struggles and desires in prayer and to my brothers and sisters.

This is my walk right now. To let go and to let God.

Letters and Homes

Hey guys!

Its been a while. I hope life is wonderful and I hope you're relishing in this beautiful new summer sun. I know I am!

Anyways, I know some of you have been asking me for my summer address. I LOVE getting letters from people and I will be sure to write you back :) so here it is!

Jessie Christian (Kricket)

CC Summer Staff

General Delivery

Mount Hermon, CA 95041

I hope to hear from some of you! After a long, hot sweaty day at work, there's nothing I love more than receiving letters to read from my loved ones. It puts the hop back in my step (Ha...get it? Cause...I'm Kricket? Yeah...).

Life has been really good, but stressful at the moment. My family is planning on moving out of my house that we have lived in for the last 19 years (I am almost 21). Its hard because I have so many lovely memories in this home, my best friend lives next door and Starbucks is literally a 5 minute walk down the street. Its been stressful because strangers are looking at my home and I can't be here to rest while they do that. So, please be praying for me. 

Speaking of prayers, I need YOUR help. I will be serving this summer, but I CANNOT do it on my strength alone. Pray that God gives me the strength, patience, heart and perseverance this summer. I need my body (that's you all) to support me and my staff. To lift us up in continuous prayer. Pray for our spiritual walks as well. That God will reveal something new to us. That those who may be having rough dry walks in their faith will be encouraged and filled by the Living Water. That those who are in joyous seasons that they will also be encouraged in their love for Christ. 

Especially pray for our kids. Pray that the Holy Spirit will give us the words to speak. That we will reach to these kids, show them the love of God and that they will have the ears to hear the Good News. Pray that their families will be equally encouraged. That the love of God extends beyond the camp high and that this one week at camp may save a marriage, may save a relationship or may even save a life. I ask that you pray continuously. Prayer is probably one of the strongest tools we have as a Christian.

Lastly, I pray for you. Wherever you are at in life. High highs or low lows. Know that God is there. Know that He promises to hear the prayers of those who call to Him by faith. Know that He loves you no matter what you are going through. He knows your deepest struggles, fears, desires and pleasures. He is the God of the Exodus who delivered the Israelites out of Egypt. He is the Living God. He is our Savior. He will be with us wherever we go.

 How do I know this? The Bible. Its all there. Ask God where to look. He will guide you. It is the Living Word. How is it living? It speaks to the soul and pierces falsehood with Truth. May Christ guide you and keep you, my friends.

Amen.