The night has a way of making your brain spin with countless thoughts of 'what if's...
Tonight, I feel a deep sense of melancoly. How come I have been too afraid of pursuing my dreams? I dream of design, yet my insecurities scream at me. They keep telling me that my kind of art is not what professional design agencies are looking for. They tell me that I don't have what it takes to apply to a design agency that wants people who are proficient in design programs.
What if they are right? What if I am not good enough...? Graphic Designers have their programs and their awesome keyboards and mouse. I am old fashioned and still work hard with my pencils and paints. Am I wanted? Is my art wanted?
I love my job right now and love the difference I get to make in kid's lives. But...I feel like I am called to do more. To explore my other gifts and to push myself in a direction that I am out of my comfort zone.
Jesus...where do you want me to go from here? Do I explore? Do I stay? I feel a little lost...please give me some direction. I know you said you want me to design. But WHERE? HOW? By myself? On Etsy? At an agency? WHAT?!?!
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