2016: Reflections

Ministry. Laryngitis. Winter Camp. Hawaii. Weddings. Concerts. Weddings. Challenges. VBS. Paranoia. Weddings. Sun. Fun. Weddings. Laughter. Justice. Ministry. New Full Time Job. New Apartment. Redemption. Transitions.

2016 was quite a season in my life. While the world around me was going through a lot, in my personal life, I could say that 2016 was one of the most memorable years of my 25 years of life.

Some people might not like New Years because they think it's corny and over rated. As humans, I believe we were created to reflect. How many times does God call us to reflect and remember all He's done for us? It's so we may not forget to look on the places where God has shed His Light and to remember the places where God showed up.

As I reflect back on 2016, I remember the challenges, but for the first time in a while, I can truly say that 2016 was one of the best years. I've grown so much. I know that might be said every year, but when I think back on all the blood, sweat and tears that were shed, I say that with confidence.
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2016 was a year of redemption in my life. "Ok, Jessie. Don't you think that's an exaggeration?"

No. No I do not.

Even as I type this up, I get a huge thrill looking back and seeing just how redeeming 2016 was! I've had friendships restored, kids who were once hard to deal with who are now growing in their relationship with Jesus, past struggles come to light and conquered thanks to (unknowingly) people who are in my present, justice brought on a criminal whom I once knew, seeing my brother become a missionary and so much more.

I wanted to write this entry to just reflect and to thank Jesus for providing. The thing that really blows my mind is that I know I complained a lot. I know I questioned whether God was going to provide or not. And I know I prayed sometimes asking God what the heck he was doing up there. Wasn't He listening? Didn't he see all the craziness? I had asked him. I even got mad at him.

And yet...

Here I am. With all these good, new and wonderful provisions. It makes me just want to fall on my knees. I am in awe and speechless by His goodness. My unfaithfulness doesn't reflect His goodness and faithfulness. He's remained true when I've believed lies. He's remained my rock when I feel like I am falling apart. He's been my protector when I've felt at my most vulnerable. He's been my truest friend despite me not catching up with Him from time to time.

He is my world because He has provided for me more than what the world can offer.

And for that, I am thankful for the year 2016.