Joyful Exhaustion

Exhausted. Thats all I can say. This week has definitely pushed me. We've been hard at work setting up for the kids next week. Its all gonna be so worth it. Even through my exhaustion, I am honestly so happy doing everything I can to help out. I told God I wanted to serve Him and gosh darn it I will despite my physical body's weakness. There was a moment one day this week where I dismissed myself from the table, went into the restroom and cried in a stall. That sounds so lame, but I sometimes just need to cry to relieve some stress. In my awkward little bathroom stall, I prayed to God for strength. In that moment, I was just SO tired and I still had so much work to do including clean up duty in the dining hall. I cried and just begged God to give me strength to keep moving forward. I felt so much better after that and He was so faithful. I managed to get through that day with His strength.

Last night, we had testimony night. My Day Camp staff went to Heidi and Joe's house (Heidi is my boss if ya'll don't know by now). There, we gathered in a circle and told our stories. I was amazed at all the stories that I heard. I related to SO many people. Its cool to hear about how God has been faithful in everyone's lives up here. Whether its a dry spell or a time of harvest. I even gave my testimony. I was really nervous because I've never told strangers my story. I was scared because there are some things I'm not proud of. But when I gave it, I hoped that it touched someone in some way or another. I wanted God to have all the glory by the end of the testimony.

I felt a new vibe going into "work" today ( I feel like its more of a home now). Everyone seemed to have a new set of energy and we immediately got to work. I was painting downstairs by myself thinking about last night. I honestly woke up embarrassed. Dang, I just poured out my heart to people that barely know me...would they still accept me as one of their own? Obviously, that was a lie from Satan. I was reassured when one of my team leaders (Breck) came downstairs, simply placed his hand on my head and said, " I am really glad you are here, Kricket." I hope he knows how much it meant to me. It gave me new energy and joy. And I hope that he was touched by God through my story.

I'm loving my job. I'm loving my DC Pirate Crew. I feel God is using me up here. He's placed us up here not only to serve the wonderful little tykes, but He's placed us here to help each other in areas we need the most help in. Praise the LORD! I cannot wait to have one on one time with each one of my brothers and sisters.

I am happy I have found a place where I can transform and rest for this summer. Spiritually rest ;]