Taking Heart

(This blog may or may not make sense)
This week has definitely taken its toll on me. But never fear! God is near! (Heehee)...

I've had an amazing group of 1st/2nd graders. They are so cute! But...I definitely need to be with older kids next week.

I felt myself begin to emotionally check out this week. Things that I had been putting off in my heart have been surfacing. I just didn't have the time to think about stuff. When I finally did have the time, it all came at me on my day off. I have been wrestling with letting stuff go this summer. To trust that God has everything under His control. To see what He wants me to pull away from this summer. I'm still trying to figure that out. I have noticed I've been gaining my confidence back, but...what else is there? Why did all this come at me THIS week? I have baggage, yes. But...God says to come to Him when we are weary and we will find rest for our souls. Where do I begin?

Here's how I feel. I feel like I am 7 years old again. When my parents made me clean my room on a Saturday. No one wants to do that on a Saturday! There's cartoons on TV! Friends are waiting! Good times are to be had! But no...my room was a nightmare and I had a lot of sorting to do. My sheets were all over the place, my Barbies were lying on the floor with little shoes scattered about them and my Beanie Baby tub had exploded. Where the HECK do I begin to clean up this mess? I guess...I always used to start with the little stuff. I guess that's where I begin now. To clean up the little things. To work through it with baby steps. To not get frustrated with myself because healing takes a while. Especially when it comes to the heart. My concern and worries lie with no one. I'm trying to see what God wants from this. What God intends for me to become after this fiasco. Who I am meant to be and how I can become a stronger person through this.

Its already been such an amazing journey. God has been so good. Like...real good....like a coke on the beach on a hot day kinda good...!

God's love is constant. His love never fails, never gives up and does not run dry. I wanna soak in it. I wanna soak up His love like a sponge. I want to let go. I want to move on with my life. I gotta let go! I want to let go! Why do I fear? I've got Jesus. He's all I need.

Time to take this to heart.

"Take Heart...I have overcome the world!"